I don't know what it is about only posting blogs on Sundays. But at least it seems to be effective so far.

Aaron has been gone all week as a chaperone at Cornerstone's youth camp. So this week I have been all alone. I actually did a lot better this week than I normally do when I am left to my lonesome. I think that has something to do with the fact that I am completely happy in most other areas of my life right now. Not to say I didn't miss having him around, because I definitely did, but more that I have a job that I love and so getting up in the morning isn't depressing anymore. 

The only thing that still isn't happy is the fact that my dad is a jerk. He is going to be filing bankruptcy soon and will get to get off scott free in a lot of his financial responsibilities where as my mom, Chad, and I are left paying for all of those things. For example, he refinanced his house about a year ago and was supposed to pay off my car and part of what he owed on my school loans with that money - he did neither. School loans don't qualify for write-off in a bankruptcy but my mom has been stuck having to pay off my car (which we got screwed on because I am pretty sure we still owe more than it is worth). The plan has always been for my mom to come out here this fall and find me a new (to me) car. When I got off the phone with her the other night I just started crying and praying. I know that God has the situation and will provide but I just still feel really burdened by the whole thing. As I was praying I happened to look down at my makeshift bookshelf and sticking out further than the other books was the Dave Ramsey book that CCU gave all the seniors at our banquet. In a way it was exactly what I had been praying about. So I started reading it. I came to the decision that it might be better to keep the car that I hate just so that I can pay it off (even if that takes a long time) just so that we don't have to fold that price into another car. I am really starting to resent the way my parents have dealt with money (my mom included) because I feel like it has not been wise and now I am starting to see the repercussions of that. I really do hate the Monte Crapload... I mean Carlo. But if its the smarter decision for me financially, then why should I get something else?